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Theme: Angsty Songs From Qiang's Teens
EPICA / Feint (Acoustic)
Every beat of your heart
Tore the lies all apart
Made foundations quiver
Every wave in the lake
Caused the porcelain to break
And I shiver
Epica is a band that has been popular amongst the metal scene for a really long time, but my first glimpse of their music led me to believe it was too
operatic for my little teenage tastes. By chance I ended up with some of their music on my mp3 player (it was probably part of a metal compilation) and the first time I heard this song I was 15, waiting in the backseat of my mom's car while she was at work to go to my pottery class later that day (I think this was around the same time I was reading
Wildwood Dancing and
Tithe, which are both great YA fantasy novels) and I absolutely fell in love with this song.
Not just because Simone's vocals are beautiful but because I really found the lyrics to be especially creative and touching and idk man this song is still one of my favorites to this day.
(yes I was reading books listening to my 2gb mp3 player, i was a bit oldschool even for 2008. I was out of school. It was blazing hot and the commute from our house was too out of the way for her so I toughed it out)
ANGTORIA / Do You See Me Now
Hate the reflection
That I see
Wish I could claw away
My skin
I discovered Angtoria when I was around 15-16 years old. I can't even remember how I came across their music but I felt like the moment I turned them on their music was everything I had been wanting to hear. This song is eerie instrumental-wise, which is probably why I like it so much. The lyrics are quite obviously about self-harm (TW). I was such a gloomy (read: depressed), angry teenager I felt like this song hit home and man, even when I listen to it now I get all angsty all over again. I'm also annoyed Angtoria never released anything after this album too.
KRYPTERIA / The Promise
Should I sign
And end this lifelong stream
Of broken dreams, of failures
Shattered hopes
Of trials and tribulations?
Pretty sure I've posted this song before. I came across this band probably on Pandora, and I've always been super into heavy music with very feminine sounding vocals, which drew me in immediately (plus the Latin-singing choir in the chorus). I found this band around the time I was 16, and related to it to an extent that it was stuck on repeat fooooor quite a while. The lyrics are about making a deal with the devil (hence '
The Promise'). Errr not that I've done that, but i had been experiencing the situation where it was like, what good am I?
NIGHTWISH / Nemo
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh, how I wish to dream againMy loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything
All the artwork I produced listening to this gem of a song I found on one of DirecTV's music channels when I was 13. Nemo (which means 'nobody' in Latin) had me a dramatic, poetry-writing and angsty teen all the way up until I found more of their music. LOL. I shared this song with everyone, all my friends,
everyone. It was the first I'd heard of symphonic metal and I fell in love. It set my emo heart alight. You see the way Tarja is forever looking down, wearing that black eyeshadow? That's still me 98% of the time. No lie though, I'm in a committed relationship with this band.
WITHIN TEMPTATION / ForsakenNow the day has comeWe are forsakenThere's no time anymoreLifeWill pass us byWe are forsakenWe're the last of our kind I was about 14 when I heard this song, I think. Good old WT. This song is fitting when you've got the "we're all doomed" mantra going on inside your head. I actually think this song is about the ruination of mankind and thus the failure of the gods mentioned in the lyrics, but that's just my opinion. I love Woke songs like this that calls mankind out. I loved being emotionally connected to this song and feeling the same desperation. So good.
LACUNA COIL / Kill The LightHold me, teach meTell me what to doBut I'm not looking for a guideI can't stand the lightOf the day outsideFeeling so cold inside your shadowCristina's voice just
does things to me, this song was definitely more of an angry song for me. I feel like it went hand in hand with my Aquarius' god complex, even before I knew I had an Aquarius god-complex. Think 19, post break-up, emotionally constipated Qiang with a lot of pent up rage. This band is great seeing in concert.
EVANESCENCE / My Heart Is BrokenI will wander till the end of timeTorn away from youI pulled away to face the painI close my eyes and drift awayAnother song from my late teens (18). This song came out at the perfect time because around that age I was dealing with mixed feelings and disappointments and heartbreak -- possibly the first time I felt heartbreak aside from daddy issues. Amy Lee's voice touches a part of my heart that no one else can reach and a lot of times her music can make me weep emotionally.
"My heart is broken, release me, I can't hold on." I was so fragile at that age, I hate to admit.
WE ARE THE FALLEN / Tear The World DownI've fought another dayLose another chance to break awayFrom all I cannot bearSuffer through the shameWishing hope would just abandon meTill this is overBesides this song having an amazing intro and outro (the outro never fails to give me chills), the lyrics at times hit home when things get overwhelming, and especially at the time I first heard it which waaaas probably around 2009/2010 (16,17). I feel like when I listen to angsty music like this all my shredded up emotions blossom all over again but I can never find a way to stitch them all together and heal them. Where'd that come from. Moving on.
AFTER FOREVER / Empty MemoriesWe know only sorrowThere's no future in tomorrowAll our hopes were buried too youngFor the years that should have followedWe know only hatred
There's no future in our anguish
For all hope is buried with life and reprisal will be ours
It's empty, we're empty
They're empty memories
For the days depression hit hard and I felt hollow. Enough said.
ELUVEITIE / Dessumiis LugeAndedion uediíumi diíiuion risunArtiu Mapon Aruerriíatin, Mapon AruerriíatinLopites sní eððdic sos brixtía anderonLucion Floron Nigrinon AdgarionAemilíon Paterin Claudíon Legitumon Caelion Pelign Claudío PelignMarcion Uictorin Asiatícon AððedillíFrom the video description this song is "an oath invocation sworn in the name of Lugh, the sun god, to curse the leaders of the Roman army during the Gallic War, which happened around 58-51 B.C. in the reign of Julius Caesar." and it is, of course, sung in ancient Gaulish.
Nothing fits anger quite as well as a song cursing army leaders in an ancient language.
CRADLE OF FILTH / Nymphetamine Six feet deep is the incisionIn my heart, that barless prisonDiscolours all with tunnel vision*runs hands down face*